Your Love Never Fails!!!!

God You are so big.  You cover my most tiny fear with just a breath.  You console me with a sunset and strengthen me by moving the tides in and out.   You care about me, Lord, and I am so thankful.  I am so glad that You call me Yours.  I am Your child and Your love never fails me or anyone.  I am happy to put my faith in You.

I have been in a transition, God, in my life.  I feel like this summer I came to a 90 degree turn on the road in my life and took a hard left.  I’m walking in a direction that I’ve never walked before and uncharted territory is scary.  I know You are with me and want me here and I am trying to look and learn and speak and do while being conscious of what You want me to do and how You want me to act.  It causes me to travel slowly, Lord, and cautiously.  I feel, though, that You are guiding me and will continue to if I just keep going inch by inch while seeking Your loving direction. 

I pray for strength, God, to go about my daily life.  I feel like I’ve been walking through a fog.  The house is pretty messy, I haven’t been making music, and my husband, while being supportive, would like his happy, smiley, carefree wife to return.  I know that person is still inside of me, God, but I’m having a hard time getting her to come out.  Please help me to manage my time, God, and to manage my emotions and not get lost in either.  Help me, please, to merge these parts of me into one Godly woman.  I’m not trying to be superwoman – just me.  Just someone I and my husband can deal well with.   

Lord, be with those I have mentioned previously.  Help me to be the friend that they need.  Strengthen us all, Lord, while we try to help each other stumble along this road of our life.  Be with all of the kids that I work with, God.  Surround them with Your love and protection, please.  Help them to recognize You and what You do in their lives.

Forgive me for my weaknesses.  I’m short tempered and expect people to just understand what is in my head.  I don’t think I explain things as thoroughly as I should.  I’m becoming aware of these things and know that You are already helping me.  

I love You, God.  

love,

me 

Today is church day and I am looking forward to some spiritual guidance.  It’ll be good to see everyone this morning.   It’s funny that we’ve only gone there for three weeks.  They treat us like we’ve always been there. 

Thank You, Lord, for this new opportunity.  Working at a church is a lot different than going to one and I think I like it.  The youth group is awesome and I am excited at the opportunity to show them how awesome You are.

Lord, I praise You this morning and glorify You.  I am amazed that in such a big, big world, I matter to You.  I am thankful for your love and guidance.  I feel You with me more and more every day.  The more I search for You, God, the more I find You.  Sometimes in big ways and sometimes in small ways, but always I’m finding you.

Please be with D and B and their boy, J.  I pray that B finds the job that is just right for her and that D rests in you.  I pray for peace for them.  I pray for J and T and their girl, G.  That You may comfort them with your Prevenient grace.

Lord, I ask forgiveness for allowing my assumptions about a person that I met yesterday to color my view of them.  It is not my place to judge and I meant not to, but did anyway.  I know that this person is Your child as much as I am and that I should just love her because You love me.  That should be enough. 

I love You, Lord.  I love You.

Love,

Me

You are the Son shining down on everyone

light of the world giving light to everyone I see

beauty so brilliant I can barely take it in

and everywhere you are is warmth and light

–Sara Groves

Here I am again, Lord.   Being warm and light in Your love.  Sitting here with my morning coffee ready to talk for a while.  Ready to feel surrounded by You.  When I do this, I do feel surrounded by Your goodness and purity.  This time with You has fast become the best part of my day.  I feel centered in You, Lord.  I feel centered in You.  I come to You for stillness and peace and the funny thing is that it stays with me for the rest of the day.  Each day that I talk to You in the morning I feel that I grow, God.  And that feeling doesn’t leave me once I’m done typing because for the rest of the day I feel more open to what You are trying to do in my life. 

I ask for your guidance, God, with my new job.  People don’t understand that it is a big thing to me even though it seems little to them.  Please work in these people to help them understand that if I don’t call it a ‘job’, it will never be one.  Starting so small and simple has never felt so big to me.  I know You want me where I am doing Your work so that I will be prepared for what is coming.  I ask that You give me the words to speak and the ears to hear with discernment, wisdom, compassion, and know how.  I pray that my actions would be Yours through me and that those who don’t understand will understand through these actions.  I’m not praying for words, Lord, I’m praying for Your actions to be seen in me.  I guess I’m asking to be a vessel, God.  Your vessel. 

I ask for You to be with my friends D. and B. and their son, J, during this time of unknowing for them.  I pray that the right job will come along for B and that their worries will cease.  I pray for J and T and their girl, G.  J is struggling with his own demons and Lord, I don’t know if T knows about You or understands how much You love her and what Your love for her means. 

Lord, I ask for your forgiveness.  I am still petty and let small things bother me.  I let what other people think cloud my judgement.  I’m trying to get better at that and feel that You have already given me abundant grace and ability to deal in that department, but I still humbly ask forgiveness for letting those small things that don’t matter get in the way of my work for You.  I ask for forgiveness for not trusting that You will work in my husband’s heart and pray for more faith, God.  I pray for more faith and more grace and more gentleness.  He needs the gentleness that only You can give him. 

I love You, Lord.  I feel You with me in the strangest moments and in the calmest ones.  I’m trusting in You, God.  You remind me constantly that that is enough.   You are enough, Lord, for me.  I love You.

love, me

“You are beautiful my sweet, sweet song.”

–Third Day

Good morning, God.  I am here this morning to tell You that I love You.  That You ARE my sweet, sweet song.  Without You I could not sing at all.  I praise You, God, and am in awe of the world You have created. 

Lord, please be with me today as I go about my Thursday routine.  Guide my hands and my feet and my car as we’ll be travelling.  Be with those, Lord, who are sick and hurting today.  Too many to name, but You know who they are better than me.  Be with a man named, Bill, Lord, and his family.  They are trying to get him back to You and I think he would love to feel Your arms around him again, but is probably just scared and feels unworthy. 

I’m having a hard time thinking about what to pray today.  As this is only third that I’ve written a prayer, I guess I’m a little self conscious which is silly because you already know my heart and what is there.  I’m listening, God.  I’m trying very hard to listen so that I can hear you.  I feel like I probably miss a lot because my own thoughts get in my way.  I guess I need for You to quiet my mind, Lord.  Praying like this helps. 

I feel like I’m on the right track, God, but that You have bigger things in store for me than what is happening right now.  It is hard for me to be patient, though, and I haven’t prayed for patience in a long time because I know that You’ll give me every opportunity to practice said patience.  Funny how even when I don’t pray for what I need, You supply me.  You supply me, God.  You supply me.  Not just with patience, but with your Love and guidance.  You supply me with what I need when I need it and I’m learning to trust.  I am.  I’m learning to trust and to wait and to be comfortable in not knowing exactly my place yet.  Because I feel that is where You want me.  You want me waiting because I hate to wait.  Funny, God.  Real funny…    I think, though, that in the waiting there is a certain kind of peace that one cannot find anywhere else.  Do You want me to experience that peace, Lord?  I will dwell in it, God.  I’ll roll around in it and glory in the not knowing. 

You will provide for me.  I know You will and already are.  I’m sorry, God, that it has taken me this long to learn that You want me for yourself and to do Your work.  I’m listening now and I’m waiting.  I love You, Lord.  I love You and I am Yours. 

Love,

Me

“O Lord, you’re beautiful.  Your face is all I seek. 

And when your eyes fall on this child, your grace abounds in me.”

–  Keith Green

You are so big, God, and I am so small.  I know that You are with me, though, even now as I begin this prayer.  My mind is busy, Lord.  Please help me to be calm so that I can talk with you.  Lord, I come to you today full of hopes and dreams and niggling doubts and fears.  I know that those doubts and fears are designed just for me so that I am tempted to not lean on You like I should. 

My time with You this weekend was just what I needed to remind me that the more time I spend talking with You, the less time I have to let those doubts and fears take over.  It is so funny, God, that I’ve been waiting so long for You to point me in a direction and now that you have, I’m scared that I’ll mess up.  Scared that I can’t do it.  Scared that I’ll fail.  And I will if I focus on those fears instead of  You.  I can hear You writing that on my heart as I sit here and visit with You.  Focus on Me.  Focus on Me, child. 

I know that with You and through You all things are possible.  That if I focus on You, everything else pails in comparison.  You want me to be “uncomfortable” and restless because it is then that I can best do Your work.  When I am restless with the call to influence people to love You.  To influence people to want to feel Your friendship and love.  It is such a big thing, Your love.  I feel breathless with it and at the same time…. calm. 

Lord, I ask You to guide me.  My thoughts, my actions, my hands and feet.  When I feel overwhelmed with the bigness of  the task that You  have assigned to me, I ask that You remind me to be still and know.  Those are the first words that I ever heard You say to me and they bring me such comfort and joy.  It is a peaceful thing – being still and knowing.  I love to do it in the presence of You, Lord.  To sit and just know that You are You dwelling in and with me. 

Be with those who need You and don’t know You.  Please be with those who think they don’t need You.  Lord, please help me to be an example to these people and others who need to experience the goodness of You and Your pureness – Your holiness.  You made us to worship You, God, but I know that You gave us all a choice.  Please help me as I go about living to remember my choice and to remember that in all things, You are with me and strengthen me.  Please, God, keep me humble, honest, and smiling.  Most of all, Lord, keep me worried about how You see my actions and not others.  Through You all things are possible.  Through You, Lord, I can love anybody through anything.  Through You, I am me.

Love,

Me